I appreciate you asking this question so that I could learn about you and your dad. He sounds awesome.
The sense of relief is allowed and shared by many kids that have gone through what you have gone through. The weight of the load and burden is really only understood once is has been lifted.
That’s a good lad; worry not.
It wasn’t a command. The Crusades were an offer to make murder a prayer for salvation.
Was quite popular. Didn’t matter if they were Saracens, Jewish folks, or even other Xians by the end.