Eh, I’ve gotten that feedback from two different friends, plus my sister. And I know I’m autistic. So at some point I have to accept that I’m sending messages I really don’t mean to.

One possibility is that it’s how you phrase things? Everything seems fine here but people tend to write and speak differently, so just throwing out a possibility here.

Maybe? I feel like I try too hard to be polite sometimes. My last therapist told me I was allowed to ask my friends for better ways to phrase things, but they got mad and said I was putting them on the spot.

Last time I explicitly said, “sorry, that was my fault,” and explained what I did wrong, and my friend still took it as me calling him stupid.

I’m beginning to think it’s just too complex for anyone to explain to me how to be nice

Also some subjects are sore as you experienced with your unemployed friend, so having this habit of taking a step back might have helped with realizing that in advance. It’s not always doable of course, you can’t know everything.

What do you do when you accidentally bring up a sore subject? Last time, I apologized and said I should have realized (I should have), and my friend and I got into a two-day argument about whether it was a sincere apology or not. I finally asked what I did to deserve being accused of lying and he just said “well if I had said that I’d mean it manipulatively, so I assumed you did”. So apologizing in that scenario is taken as manipulative, right?

When I was a kid I absolutely loved The Chronicles of Narnia and I hated The Last Battle. I thought King Tirian was an unpleasant asshole and I thought killing the Pevensies sucked because they all go to Narnia Heaven forever while Susan has to bury them.

It probably wasn’t a bad book but it felt like it ended my childhood.

I went into more detail in this comment. Can’t pull exact quotes as I left the group chat because I was tired of constantly causing arguments, so this is the best of my recollection.

Also once friend A was feeling guilty because he was enjoying the weather even though it was the side effect of a natural disaster. I didn’t know this at the time, I was talking with friend B who was encouraging me to vent about my family.

I wasn’t being treated for my OCD and was a paranoid pain in the ass and kept asking why it was OK, when last time I was told that venting about my family was insulting to friend A. Friend A saw this conversation and immediately posted “I know the real reason you’re mad at me—” (I wasn’t mad) “—it’s because I’m a colonizer!”

I don’t pick up on these things and spent the next several weeks trying to figure out why my question insinuated he’s a colonizer, and how to ask things without calling people colonizers.

Like some examples I could give just sound really weird if you weren’t there. And that’s just one where I eventually picked up on what actually went wrong. Mostly I just look back on old arguments and I’m really confused and I wouldn’t be surprised if they sound like word salad when I try to describe them.

This is a good suggestion, thanks!

I’ve tried but I work 8-5 and through the weekend, I can’t find anything compatible with my hours 😭 I’d love to join one of the local hiking groups someday

No, it’s mostly my friends and family telling me I’m being an asshole or insinuating things I didn’t mean to. Oddly enough, people seem to like me at work.

I wasn’t directly called a dick, but I get told I “clearly” mean something I didn’t mean a lot. Like once I was complaining that my siblings (all late 20s to early 30s) didn’t work and expected my mom to pay for everything, and a friend came in with “I know you’re just mad at me for being unemployed” when I wasn’t talking to or about him. Another time, I was venting (with permission) and said I was scared I was a bad person, and this friend took it to mean he was a bad judge of character, and even after I apologized he kept talking about what a bad judge of character he is.

I thought it was just this friend projecting his insecurities, but recently I was arguing with another friend and I apologized and said it was my fault for not explaining myself clearly, and he took it to mean I thought he was too stupid to have serious conversations with. He said I look down on him for being disabled and stopped talking to me.

My sister has also gotten mad at me without warning during casual conversations and I have to pry an explanation out of her and it’s always “your tone of voice made it sound like you were picking a fight”.

Also multiple instances where I was repeatedly told my apologies weren’t genuine and I was lying.

So no one’s straight up called me a dick, but I think a person who says or thinks the things I’m communicating would be a dick. Whether I mean to be or not, the person I’m presenting to the world is a dick. I make people feel awful about themselves, and I want to not do that.

Anyway, thanks for the tips. I try to do all those, but now that I think about it, I’m probably bad at the last one. I’ve definitely been yelled at for not shutting up before.

Kinda rough. I used to have a tight knit friend group but I stopped doing things with them as one guy kept accusing me of being passive aggressive, insulting him, lying about what I “actually” meant when as far as I know I was being genuine. It was making me a nervous wreck and my attempts to avoid conflict made everything worse so I ghosted everyone. Kept hanging out with one guy who I thought I was pretty close to, though.

But now I’m starting to think I was wrong. My friend told me that I always make him feel stupid, and that I look down on him. I apologized, told him I had no idea and that I always meant it when I said I admired him, and asked if there was anything I could do to fix this, but he left me on read days ago.

So honestly I’ve pretty much spent every second I’m not at work or the gym sulking. I blew up my social life for no reason because I actually was the dick. Making art isn’t fun when I have no one to show it to and watching my stupid shows isn’t fun when I have no one to enjoy them with.

Also this is the most minor hurricane-related complaint ever but I can’t get my psych meds refilled so I’m probably about to become even more of an unlikeable POS.

I tried, unfortunately I get shuffled between relatively solitary jobs and customer service on a moment’s notice. I think last time I tried I was listening to something gory and didn’t have time to pause it before helping a little kid find clothes. Sorry if I looked traumatized, kid.

I could probably find more opportunities to listen at home while doing chores and stuff, though. I have a tendency to want to take in fiction in big blocks of time instead small chunks split across the day, but it’s not always an option.

And the book is The Passenger by Cormac McCarthy! I picked it up kinda blind because I’ve had both friends and Lemmy users recommend books by him, but the library didn’t have any of the ones that were suggested to me.

Didn’t realize that. The only applications I’ve seen for it are conversation or generating media based on text input. I thought all it did was analyze text and create a response based on patterns it had observed.

I haven’t done much with it myself though so that’s probably a very limited POV.

Pretty much just weight training. I want to get more into geocaching, but yknow… Hurricane Helene. 😰

Just turning on the nearest rock station and venting my anxiety onto the dumbbells has been nice, though.

It really depends. Both on how much I peed, and also how decent the TP is. Basically however many it takes not to saturate the TP, and not get urine/blood/mucus on my hands. Could be three, could be a ton.

I’ll use a TON more during my period, as even with a cup in, blood finds it’s way onto my skin and then the flow of the urine helps spread it to every nook and cranny.

Another thing to take into account is discharge. That definitely takes extra TP, it’s thicker and a few squares won’t hold up.

TL;DR whoever gives a consistent amount of squares is either lying or has a much nicer vagina than I do

Stealing this

At least 20 years of having slugs as a special interest and I never heard the word limaceous?? Thank you for correcting this!

Now to find out if it actually has specific academic usage and the biologists will execute me if I use it regarding slugs outside the superfamily Limacoidea.

Because that’s what it’s designed for? I’m curious what else it could be good for. A machine capable of independent, intelligent research sounds like a totally different invention entirely.

Mainly so it doesn’t nag me to make an account or download the app if I want to read something that’s been marked nsfw

There’s probably stuff that’s a lot worse in a vacuum, but tbh my dad giving me the talk about his own childhood trauma and the cycle of abuse. He concluded it by telling me to remind him of “the cycle” next time he’s raging.

Even as a kid I knew that telling a large, angry man with a belt in his hand and daddy issues, “hey, you’re acting like your father” would just make the beatings harder.

Second runner up is that apparently he convinced my brothers and sisters that I was the favorite and he never abused me like he did them. That meant they hated me and abused me too.

Third runner up is probably the hoarding or the 24/7 black mold exposure or maybe the animal hoarding, or possibly when he assaulted a woman in front of me (although technically not something he did to me)

It’s so stupid, ain’t it? The logic is so broken when you think about it. So the south has oppressive laws. You think that’s bad, because people deserve better, right? Except then you hate people for being oppressed, so much that you want them to suffer further punishment.

So you don’t actually hate oppression, right? So then why don’t you like the south?

Liberals are some of the stupidest creatures alive. (I’m a leftist)

Appalachia is flooded and tons of people can’t get clean water or evacuate due to roads collapsing. Opened Tumblr, saw a smug liberal practically orgasming over “you Trump voters” getting what we deserve.

I guess I’m fighting with my only friend again. I told him I explained something badly and he misunderstood it. He told me he’s too stupid to have serious conversations with. I reiterated that the communication failure was on my end, and he’s not stupid. He suddenly flipped the script and said I always make him feel stupid and that I think he’s lesser than me. Even though he was calling himself stupid and I was trying to reassure him? I attempted to comfort him and asked what I could do better, since I actually really admire him, but he hasn’t replied.

It’s almost time to return my library book and I’ve barely touched it. I carry it everywhere with me, but we’re so busy I have to work through my breaks and I pretty much fall asleep when I get home. I guess it’s more of a hobby for well off people.

Maybe next week will be remotely decent.